Look at me...it's been 2 days since I last blogged. So far so good on my New Year's resolution!
Right before Thanksgiving Marissa had a seizure at school. Nothing like this has ever happened to her before. She was in the playground and "fainted" twice, hitting her head on the concrete. After an evaluation at the neurologist they ordered her to have an EEG. Basically it's like an EKG, but for the brain instead of the heart.
Her EEG is tomorrow morning. Here's the problem: The test has to be done while the child is sleep deprived. So she has to stay awake until midnight tonight and has to wake up at 5am tomorrow morning. Her test isn't until 9:30am and she's not allowed to fall asleep before then. Please pray for her. Not only for help to stay awake, but for the results.
I took Dawson to the doctor this morning. He has been having migraines. They've been going on for over a year, but are getting progressively worse and more frequent. The doctor ordered him to have a CT Scan. He said he wanted to rule out a brain tumor. What in the world? Do you want me to have a panic attack?
Fear is something that I've struggled with my entire life. For instance, as a child I wouldn't sleep at people's houses because I was afraid my family would be killed while I was away. The older I got the more the fear increased. Adding a husband and kids to the mix nearly put me over the edge. It's been a long journey, but He has given me freedom from paralyzing fear. God has done amazing work in this area of my life.
So when my kids' health is at stake, like it is now, I have a choice to make. I can get freaked out, let my mind spin wildly out of control and fall into a pit of depression...or I can trust God. This time I've made the right choice. I'm choosing to believe that God is in control. I'm not allowing the "what ifs" to steal my peace and contentment.
Acknowledging my tendencies towards fear is crucial to victory in my life. I can easily go from "fine" to "horrible." I've got to stay close to God and constantly make the right choices about my thoughts. I don't always succeed, but thankfully those times are less and less common.
So while you're praying for my kids (thank you) would you also pray for me, that fear doesn't take over and consume me. Thanks!
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