It all started on Easter weekend. I was eating dinner and fainted in my pizza. Everyone had a good laugh and I was fine. Then it happened again...and again, until last Friday when it happened at work. My co-workers freaked out and called 911. Apparently I was unconscious for a while and kept convulsing. I ended up spending last weekend in the hospital. Not exactly a spa weekend!
After tons of tests they couldn't find anything wrong with me. They put me on a 30-day heart monitor and told me to see a Neurologist. I am so frustrated that they can't find anything wrong with me. They have ideas of what it could be: either a heart arrhythmia or panic attacks or something else, but no definite ideas yet. Everyone keeps telling me that no matter what the problem is it is stress-based.
I'm going to be honest and tell you that it really irritates me that it's stressed-based. I'm one of those incredibly busy people who likes to believe that she can handle it all; a modern day Wonder Woman. The thought that my life is out of control totally annoys me.
Vince and I have been having countless conversations about it. The thing that finally opened my eyes to the insanity of my life was comparing "Virginia Beach Jen" to "Las Vegas Jen". They are two totally different people and "Las Vegas Jen" is out of control. My to-do list is probably four times longer than it was in Virginia Beach. It was a really good kick in the pants.
I've decided to make some changes in my life; to re prioritize my to-do list. Basically I'm cleaning house and getting back to the basics of what's important: God and my family. Would you please pray for me as I figure out and implement these changes? It's really hard for me and quite depressing. I know the end result will be a much better life, but getting to that point is difficult and uncomfortable at times.
I know your life is overwhelming at times, if not most of the time. Would you leave a comment and tell us how you cope, and what advice you would give someone in my position? Thanks!
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